I saw a coyote, yesterday. In town. Yes, in town. I was on my way to take back the little itty bitty rental car. I had just went up the last little hill and was on Willow just in town. I noticed everyone was slowing down. The cars in front of me and the cars coming at me were going slowly, and ahead I could see people pulled over and standing outside their cars. I thought "there's been a wreck". But I noticed a couple of dogs on my right. One was trying to "talk" to the other but the other one was growling at him. Then I did a double take. What a scroungy looking dog. He looked like a stray. What messy hair. Ugly! All this passed through my thoughts in mere seconds. All of a sudden it dawned on me. A coyote! In town! Wow! I took a second look. I slowed down and looked back as I passed. How strange, right in town. Poor thing looked so out of it's element. It looked like it wanted to be anywhere but there in the proverbial spotlight. People staring.
Isn't that just like life? When you make a mistake and find yourself in the wrong place or find yourself doing something dumb, everyone is looking. Or so we think. We try so hard to be strong and be right. We try to not care what others think. But when we do dumb things or make mistakes, we feel the criticism.
I propose the loudest voice we hear is our own. We beat ourselves up long after God has forgiven us of things. We have asked for his forgiveness. He has given it to us. He has blotted out our transgressions. Yet we remember them, over and over. No wonder we feel wounded and ugly and dumb or whatever ugly word you apply to your soul. Inside we look like that poor coyote. Scroungy, lost, like a stray. We are none of those if we have accepted the savior. But we believe we are.
Last week I was in a home where two Scottie dogs lived. They were beautiful. Well groomed. Scottie haircuts. Shiny. Happy. Loved. When you compare the picture of them with the picture of the wild coyote. You have a picture of an animal unloved and two animals loved. The coyote didn't belong. the Scotties belonged. The coyote was lost. The Scotties had a home.
If you have accepted the Lord, you are loved. You belong. You are clean through Him. You have someone to turn to, someone who loves you so much. I have found as I press into the Lord and I think on his love. I no longer feel like the coyote but like the Scotties. Loved. Joyful, Shiny. On my way to my heavenly home. As I press in and talk to him I am able to forget too and forgive myself and be kind to myself. I wish that for everyone.
I saw a coyote, yesterday......